I hate ME!

SWAY

Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you

And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why
I say it's infinitely true

Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure, and no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon

It's all because of you
It's all because of you
Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why, I say it's infinitely true

It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you

Boy, I'm in such a mess again. I had let my emotions rule over me (again!). I'm all wrong. I didn't see it coming or I was constantly in denial. How could it be? I was always shaking off the idea until I found myself getting affected with everything that was happening. Why oh why?! I should have kept my distance but I did not.

But I know this will pass. This is nothing. It's just a simple case of displacement. This is not going to be permanent. This is not good for me and to a lot of people. I'm not going to jeopardize our friendship or any one's life for that matter because of my feelings. I better accept what I feel, let go and move on. I'll be able to pull myself together and simply live each day like it was before.

God has just worked amazingly and had actually intervened. He did something that will stop me from getting into deep trouble. I'm praying so hard. Still.