Thoughtless July

July was overcarried with my Canada application which we all know I gave up. It was also the month where I ended my 14-month stay with Sykes. I'm going to miss my team for sure.

I should say that July was the most difficult month for me in terms of my personal relationships. It was trying to let go of something that you'd like to hold on to forever but you can't. It's like moving forward but both your feet are tied down. It's like reaching for more air because you are out of breath.

I take full responsibility for everything that happened this month. There are some things that I can never undo but I hope that I get up and move on really soon. After all, I can never be this miserable forever. I just need time to pick up the pieces and I'm all set. It's a personal thing and I really appreciate my friends who understand what I'm going through. I may never be able to share it with you but I thank you for all the love that you're extending.

Lastly, I'd like say sorry to myself.

I Didn't Mean To Make You Mine

by Nina

Don't give me a second chance
It'll be the same
You will be the consequence
And I will have the pain
You are something else
I have to survive
That is why I say
With tears in my eyes

I wish I never opened up my heart
I didn't mean to love you baby
I wish I never let it get this far
I didn't mean to love you baby
If I could have a single wish
I'd turn back time
I didn't mean to make you
I didn't mean to make you
Mine

Don't look at me like I'm mad
I thought you would know
I was getting way too sad
It was gonna show
There was no way I could hide
I could hide the truth
So I took the risk
And fell for you

I wish I never opened up my heart
I didn't mean to love you baby
I wish I never let it get this far
I didn't mean to love you baby
If I could have a single wish
I'd turn back time
I didn't mean to make you
I didn't mean to make you
Mine

I didn't mean to make you hold me
I didn't mean to get so lonely
I didn't mean to say all this to you
I didn't mean to make you need me
I didn't mean to love you like I do
Look at what we've put us through