Hoy June-June!

Today is the last day of June and I can actually count the number of days that I reported to work. You may call this as an excuse: My mind is willing but my body isn't so why force myself? If I can, I would really go to work. Anyways, I only have a few more days to work before I leave. Leave? OH yeah I'm really leaving soon but last night I have e-mailed my employer and I made it sound that I need a few days of extension before I go and leave my life here. Hope they grant it.

June was a difficult time for me and my family. My father was hospitalized and we had to stretch our budget and pool our resources as well. Again to our family and friends, thank you. We hope and pray he recovers really soon so that we can go back to our normal lives.

This month was also a celebration for 3 birthdays: Luisa's, my uncle's and my Nanay's. We still managed to somehow be happy despite our problems. Thank God for another year for them.

One of my best friends in the office is back and hopefully he won't be tormented with so many problems again. Hang on pare! No more worries, you can count on me as always while I'm still here.

Then the highlight of this month happened yesterday. When I thought that my application to work abroad would take like weeks or even months, it just took a matter of days and they want me to go there ASAP. Whew! I still have things to do and I've to prepare myself really soon for that big leap.

Even though I spent most of my time at home. I've got so many issues within me. I don't know what I've been feeling lately. I've been trying to resist it because it's not going to help me in any way. I know I'll just get into deep trouble so it would be best to shut up and move away. Probably God is working that's why He wanted me to leave ASAP. "It's a sign!" as Vhal and I would jokingly say. It would be best if I'm miles away. God does know what He's doing and He's keeping me from doing the wrong decisions. Thank you God!

PS: Best hirit:
When I told my best friend (who's living in the states that I'm going) that I'm going to Montreal, his answer: "Praise God. You are saved!". I had to say "I agree too!". I can't wait to see him in December.

Be Gone in 30 Days

Everything is happening so fast. I just submitted my application form last Friday and the past few days, new developments happened. I am overwhelmed with the turn out of events that I sometimes miss out important details on what my employer is sending me.

I read the letter of appointment that they sent me and it states there that my work commences July 29, 2007, A big WHAT?! That's 30 days from now! Does it mean I have to pack my bags and leave ASAP? I haven't conditioned myself that I'm leaving and I'll be gone for 3 years. What now?! I found myself shedding buckets of tears as I kept reading the letter that they sent me. I think I read the letter for more than 10 times because I wanted to be sure. It was really there black and white.

A lot of thoughts started running through my head. I had a lot of worries. What's going to happen to my family that I'll leave behind? Who's going to look after them? What will happen to my relationship with Cholo, Luisa and Eriel? I'd be missing much of their growing up years. What's going to happen to our Sunday bonding? How about my time with my cousins? I'd be missing our get togethers. What about my friends? Will they still be around when I come back? Will our bond remain? What about my present work that I have to finish until July 20? I won't have the chance to have my papers cleared and get my money. Will I have the time to prepare the things that I need? Will I ever be prepared for this?

Everything will change in my life and I'm suddenly scared. Sure I can be independent but it's different when I can have my family and friends close by. But as of now, this huge sacrifice has to be made. I can't think very well. I don't know what and where I should begin with. I have to see all my family and friends and give them each a tight hug. I need them to give me support for this endeavor that I'm going to take.

Guys, can you start hugging me now?

My Mom is 6 Decades Old Today

You are my best friend. You are my enemy. You listen to me. You scold and advise me. You are my life.

I can't thank you enough for being my mother. Your strength leaves me in awe. Your patience is incomparable. Your energy is immeasurable. You are the best Nanay in this world. I hope and pray to God that we spend more years together. We have been tested really hard the past few weeks but we'll survive this together. I am always here for you. I live because of you.

Happy birthday Nanay!

Sobrang THANK YOU!

it had been a very difficult time for me and my family. as we went through the storm, we thank everyone who gave prayers, support and financial assistance. we can't thank you enough. i am out of words. you are in our prayers as well. someday, we hope we can return the favor you've given us.

to my friends, officemates and cousins, you are the best!

Why Do I Love You?

Is it because people say we look alike?
Is it because you are far more girly than me?
Is it because you are very smart for your age?
Is it because your smile melts anyone's heart away?
Is it because of your talkativeness?
Is it because you shower me with your hugs and kisses?
Is it because you are very organized?
Is it because you follow my instructions very well?
Is it because you listen to me?
Is it because we sing and dance together when nobody is watching?
Is it because you find my jokes funny?
Is it because you tell me you love all the time?

I say YES to all these questions and there are a million reasons why I love you. Let me just show you how much I love you as we hang out more. I love you, love you, love you Lui!

Happy 5th birthday!

i MAY say so

MAY. This month flew by so fast. Or was I taking my leaves seriously not noticing the time because of too much sleep? I don't know. May was much a limbo for me. I had to take certain steps that will shape my future. Wow future! I wonder how my future looks like now that I am resigning. Resigning? I've not even handed my resignation letter. Okay next week. Verbally, I've told Tin and I believe Boss Bry has an idea. What will I say in my letter? Thank you? Then do I open up regarding my future plans? I don't know how to.

On the first week of May I looked for my anniversary at work. One year pare was no joke! Then my bro came home from Dubai and I hardly see now Cholo and Lui because my bro is making up for the lost time. In a few weeks they're back in my loving arms. Mwahahaha! On my very first vacation leave, I realized I am so tired and I don't want to continue what I am doing at work. I had decided to say goodbye. Oh well July is more than a month to go. And from there? I might take the work offer in Canada seriously. Yup, Canada. I was just browsing and applying endlessly in the internet for work abroad and soon enough I got a reply from a company based in Canada. I'm not going to be jobless after all. I might take a shot. What's there to lose anyway?

One good memory of this merry month of May was our team-building in Baguio. Road trip galore and it was such an adventure. All expense paid. Whoa! I enjoyed amidst my throbbing headache. Thankfully, the migraine attack was not very bad or I would have ruined our trip. I missed going on road trips and travelling in general especially with friends. We really needed and deserved it. Thanks to ETC! You made my last few weeks memorable. If there was any problem, I hope it gets ironed out real soon and I hope that no one gets involved especially people who are not supposed to be meddling and giving unsolicited advise. Suggestion ko lang? Huwag na kayong makialam kase wala kayong matutulong at wala kayong kwenta. Go and get involved with your own dirty lives! My team will be able to survive this storm. I love you guys!

I'm such in a fighting mood but I would not stoop down to other people's level. Wait, are they even people?! This month made me realize that your every action really does have an equivalent reaction. You can go and have fun but you should know your limitations. I realized too that people who commit mistakes should be given not just a second chance but a lot of chances. Sometimes people that we highly regard of may not be the person whom we thought he/she is. I can be a party pooper but at least I don't do stupid things. I can be the sane one in such difficult situations. Here's the song that was playing while we were going down from Baguio:

I Hate Everyone

Some stupid chick in the checkout line
Was paying for beer with nickels and dimes
And some old man who clipped coupons
Had argued whenever they wouldn't take one
All I wanted to was buy some cigarettes
But I couldn't take it anymore so I left

I hate everyone (4x)

All the people on the street, I hate you all
And the people that I meet, I hate you all
And the people that I know, I hate you all
And the people that I don't, I hate you all
Oh, I hate you all

Some fucking asshole just cut me off
and gave me the finger when i fucking honked
then he proceded to put on the brakes yeah he slamed on the brakes
but i made a mistake
when i climbed out of my van he was waitin' but he was six three
and two hundred pounds of satan

I hate everyone (4x)

All the people on the street, I hate you all
And the people that I meet, I hate you all
And the people that I know, I hate you all
And the people that I don't, I hate you all
Oh, I hate you all

I bet you think I'm kidding
But I promise you its true
I hate most everybody
But most of all I hate
Oh, I hate you

All the people on the street, I hate you all
And the people that I meet, I hate you all
And the people that I know, I hate you all
And the people that I don't, I hate you all
And the people in the east, I hate you all
And the people I hate least, I hate you all
And the people in the west, I hate you all
And the people I like best, I hate you all
Oh, I hate you all

I'm on leave tonight and it feels so good. This morning I went to Trinoma with Cholo, Lui and Kuya Roy. The kids had fun in Time Zone. The promised blowout for having good grades. Sad to say I hurt my finger in the kiddie bowling alley. Boba! I have to go now, my finger is hurting again. Have to go back to my cousins.

PS:
Best hirit of the Month:
When my niece, LUi, is asked kung sino kamukha nya, she answers "tita Rc!". Good kid!