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Thursday, August 20, 2009

The Little Girl's Sad Story

It's a typical story of girl meets boy. A story that had span for more than two decades. Or was there even really a story?

She was five years old. He was five years old. The little girl was the family's baby. She enjoyed every attention she got from everyone. On the other hand, the boy was very shy who never said a word unless spoken to. They were never friends since it was typical of girls hating boys and boys hating girls at that time. The boy was one of the brightest students in class. The girl was also an honor student but she always got into trouble because of her naughtiness. At that time, the little girl knew that there was more to the little boy behind those thick eyeglasses. She knew she felt different towards the little boy. But what can she do? She was only five years old. In four years that they were clasmates, she did not have any interaction with the little boy. All she knew then was that this boy is her first crush in school. Her first love.

Unfortunately, the little girl had to move away with her family and left the boy she liked. She went about doing her own stuff. She had a new environment, new friends and new life. She forgot about the little boy.

Growing up, the girl had her fair share of triumphs and disappointments. She fell in love several times only to get her heart broken. But she's a survivor. She had turned her failures into lessons which had helped her to become a better person. She was contented with her life. She always had her family and friends behind her back. She thought she would not be needing someone special in her life. Or so she thought.

With the advent of technology, the girl thought of searching her old classmates on the internet. She remembered mostly the names of her girl classmates. But one name that she could not forget was the boy's. She found him and added him right away. She even sent him a message of hello and the boy responded that he remembers her as the smartest little girl in class with pigtails. There were a few exchange of messages but soon the girl felt weird for some unknown reason. So she just decided not to continue with it. After all, she just wanted to find him and she knew he still exists.

She carried on with her life thinking that she's happy wherever she is. She told herself that she'll never let any man hurt her again and that meaning never getting into a relationship ever again.

On her 30th birthday, the girl went online to check her messages on her old social networking site. She was surprised that the boy updated his profile. Apart from that the boy was wearing a pink shirt on his profile photo! Waaaah! The girl took a closer look at his photo and memories of her childhood came rushing one by one. He almost looked exactly the same. It took her days to decide if she'll send him a message. With her fingers crossed, she messaged him. A few days later, the boy had replied to her and soon there were a few friendly messages exchanged between the two of them.

But something inside was bothering the girl. A big part of her wanted to know more about the boy. She didn't know why but she knew she had to do something about it for her own peace of mind. Hence, the quest to know about the boy began.

She started looking for old friends who knew the boy from way back. She asked them questions that would appease her curiosity. She would get promising answers but sometimes disappointing ones as well. But she wanted to find out for herself. Months later, with the help of two trusted friends, the meeting was set. She had told herself not to get her hopes up too high because it's going to be the first meeting (probably the last).

From a far, she already knew it was him approaching. This was her classmate who never said a word to her when they were kids. But now, he was more outspoken and confident. One thing that she distinctly noticed was he's still very smart. As they talked, she realized how different their lifestyles are. He was not the guy that she'd usually fall for and there was no future at all since the boy had actually mentioned that he cannot be in a relationship at this stage in his life. Okay! The girl came home a bit disappointed but she told herself that there should have been no expectations in the first place. After all, the goal was just to see and meet him. But still, she liked what she saw. Unfortunately, the quest should end right there.

A few hours after the meeting, she was shocked to get a message fom the boy asking her to go out for lunch. She was smiling like there was no tomorrow. She couldn't go out at that time but had expressed that she'll welcome the next invitation. She was feeling weird but it was a happy weird feeling. The messages that she received from the boy made her extremely happy but it only lasted for a few days. Slowly, the boy disappeared just like that.

The girl felt stupid for falling that soon. He already said that he cannot be in a relationship. The girl is crushed with what had happened. Maybe, the boy was just being friendly. Maybe, he had mastered the skills of making a woman fall for him. Too bad for the girl for assuming and falling - really hard.

The girl knew better but she had let herself get hurt again. This boy was indeed her first love. The feelings had been deep-seated all these years. She never really forgot him. Will she ever get her happy ending?
The girl is left sobbing....

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

To The Usual Suspects

I'm no Miss Congeniality.

But when I find a friend, I really treasure that person. I only have a few, trusted friends and I can stand by them no matter what happens. I make a conscious effort to protect friendships that I've built. And when other people try to put us down, I stick up and stick with my friends.

I have this group of friends whom I love so much. They're like my extended family since we're practically together every day. Each of us has a different personality but when we're together, there seems to be a powerful force that binds us. With just one look or gesture, we already get what one means. Sometimes words are no longer needed. We knew we'll be there for each other no matter what. We can talk about the shallowest and the deepest topics.

Our favorite topic is of course about Philippine showbiz. We'd usually pick on Jonalyn Viray, Marian Rivera and more often than not, the Kapuso channel overall. That becomes our breather from our workload. Then we'd pick on each other but we'd lead to ganging up on our youngest friend. We'd play when we're bored like the others. We support each other especially when it comes to our work, our health and our families. These are the people that I am proud to be associated with because no matter what people say about our group or each one of us, we don't get affected. We knew and we know better.

Recently, my friends and I got involved in a crisis that shook our worlds. Unfortunately, it's still affecting us to this very day. But what's making us get through this each and everyday is the fact that we're not bailing out on one another. Our support for each other is just amazing that we are learning to cope better in this situation. We are getting to know each other better and realizing that beyond all the jokes and laughter, we are true friends of each other and we are good individuals.

At this point, I am admitting that it's a lost cause. I/we may have lost what we had but nothing compares to the friendship and heartfelt support that we have for each other. What we lost is nothing compared to what we had gained. Let's face it, our friendship cannot feed our families, pay our rent or buy that "to die for shoes". But those are just material things, it can't last forever. Our friendship has been tested. However, I believe bonded us more and making us better friends. We may not be together always nowadays but deep in our hearts the love will always be there. In God's perfect time, we'll be okay and we'd talk about it and just laugh it off like we always do. Whatever happens, you will be always my dear Noel, my dear Ava, my dear Nina, my dear Poi and my dear Frank.

Noel, I was scared of you at first. You were always the fighter in our group. I admire that in you. You are always able to speak your mind. You always tell me to fight for what I believe is right. You were constantly supporting me career-wise. Your talent is really a gift. I hope you put that into use. I will surely miss your kabitchesahan and the times that you welcomed me in your home. Thank you Noel for being my strength each time I feel like giving up.

Ava, you have to admit na mami-miss mo ako and the topics that we talk about like ghosts, UP, our mothers, our brothers, our relatives, our fiends, your love life (coz I have none), our favorite food, Jonalyn Viray, Marian Rivera, John Lloyd Cruz, Nina (not Bangit), ASAP, SOP, The Buzz, etc. I think we had the most daldalan sessions since we've been seatmates like forever. Sorry if you felt violated with my misuse of vulgar words. You know how naive I am. Piece of advice, I know you were really confused when we talked about some people on our way to Tagaytay. You know yourself better. I admire your intelligence and your love for your family especially kay Mommy. Thank you Ava for always listening to me.

Nina, I admire your convictions on and about life. You are such a great artist and I'm glad that we're batchmates. Your kajologan is such a surprise considering that you are a quiet person (or so we think). I will miss your surprising hirits, how your eyes would lighten up when we talk about Gabbie and the movies that you think of for our charades game. Thank you Nina for being a good friend.

Poi, you are one of the sweetest persons that I've ever met. Like Nina, I am happy that we are batch mates. Your happiness is contagious and makes everyone lighten up when you're around. Your childlike attitude is endearing and your bobo hirits and moments are truly tatak-Poi. Nag-iisa ka lang! I admire your love for your family and for Ralph. Okay, I agree with you na he's truly lucky to have you. I admire that you always try to see the good side of the situation or the person. Poi, thank you for being you. You are a very good person and I'm glad that you are my friend from day one to the day I die.

Frank, you know that I love you. If I don't pick on you that means I don't care at all. You are our bunso and thank you for living up to its meaning. Thank you for making us laugh. We've had some misunderstandings but I'm happy you are able to forgive me. I will surely miss your kakulitan, your dance steps, your out-of-this-world ideas and your support. Thank you for your pieces of advice. Thank you for the purity of your heart (heart lang). Sorry humirit pa.

We will rise above this situation and the tears will eventually stop from falling. Like we said, there's a reason for this and we are off to better opportunities. I love you all so much and once again thank you for being my true friends.

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Thank You Tita Cory....


for restoring democracy in this country.

for being a mother to this nation.

for your good governance.