Kath and Me, and GARY V

I haven't seen Kath for months. We would just exchange a few text messages and that was it. I was busy with work and she was busy with school. So, when an opportunity came to meet up, we instantly planned out our meeting. A meeting that included Gary V.

Kath and I are huge Gary V fans. Being younger than I am, Kath back then knew just a few Gary V songs. But when I brought her to the Gary V XXtreme concert in 2003, she started loving him. Last year, she had the chance to watch his anniversary concert at Music Museum and she had made me listen to Gary over the phone. I missed Gary. I missed Kath.

So yesterday, we watched Gary V at a mall show. While waiting for Gary V to arrive, we talked about millions of topics. We caught up with what was happening to each other. We laughed like there was no tomorrow. But when Gary V came out, we stopped talking. I went near the stage to take photos. Kath stayed on our seat, trying as much as she can to control her excitement. Well, this time Kath did not shed tears over Gary V's performance. She tried containing her emotions. Hahaha!

With just a few minutes of performance, as always, Gary V left us in awe. He never ever, ever let us down. It was bitin but can we ever get enough of Gary V? We'll be looking forward to another Gary V concert or show. We're goona plan that. Right Kath?



Thereafter, we went to have dinner at El Pueblo. On the way, we were chatting endlessly even throughout dinner. Dinner was great!

I feel so comfortable with Kath. I can talk to her with no worries of being judged right away. I told her about decisions that I couldn't make as of this time and she said that I should not rush myself in coming up with resolutions. Big decisions will take a big time of thinking. She sent me a message when I got home: I wish you real lasting happiness. Aaaaaw that's so sweet! I had a great time too, my mind off from my problems. Hope to see you soon Kathoy!

3 Surveys

It was a full-packed day and yet I still don't feel sleepy. Oh come spirit of sleep! Well, what was I supoosed to do? To pass the time, I'm gonna answer these surveys. Wala ng pakialamanan!

SURVEY #1
1.anong nakasulat sa suot mong tshirt ngayon?
~ LOVE IS ALL U NEED

2. anong oras na?
~ 11:41PM

3. ano favorite mong gawin pag bored?
~ Manuod ng TV/DVD, mag-malling, magsurf sa internet

4. anong pinapakinggan mo ngayon?
~ Gary V Relevance album

5.anong nararamdaman mo ngayon?
~ inaantok at naiinis dahil hindi ako makatulog

6. anong gagawin mo pag may sumampal sa yo ng walang reason?
~ sigurado akong makakatikim din sya sa ken ng sampal

7. anong itsura mo pag nalalasing?
~ wala sa sarili

8. anong gagawin mo pag nakakuha ka ng Php1000 sa kalsada?
~ ibibigay ko sa ibang tao

9. anong balak mong gawin tomorrow?
~ sunduin sina Cholo at Lui and then matulog

1o. anong brand ng huling sapatos na sinuot mo?
~ Julia

11.kelan ka huling sumakay ng car/fx/taxi
~ a few hours back. met up with Kathoy, watched GV and then had some dinner in El Pueblo

12. umaakyat ka ba sa bubong ng bahay nyo?
~ oo naman

13. marunong ka bang lumangoy?
~ NO! huhuhu!

14. nakapunta ka na ba sa gateway mall?
~ oo pero di ako natuwa. ang gulo e!

15. ano huli mong kinain?
~ arrabiata, formaggi at mango frulatti

16. nakasakay ka na ba ng cyclone loop sa star city?
~ yup back in HS.

17. madalas ka bang makita sa baywalk?
~ HINDE!

18. nakakanta ka na ba sa videoke?
~ op cors!

19. nakapasok ka na ba sa UP Diliman?
~ syempre. Iskolar ako ng Bayan e.

20. anong katangian mo ang maipagmamalaki mo sa mga tao?
~ kahit may problema, patuloy akong ngingiti at lalaban sa hamon ng buhay (andeep!)

21. makulet ka bang tao?
~ di lang ako sure. sa palagay ko hinde. (hehehe!)

22. magaganda ba kanta ni Babyface?
~ OO! The best was "when can I see You Again"

23. e ng destiny's child?
~ Oks lang!

24. naexperience mo na ba na maglakad habang umuulan?
~ yup. pro mas na-enjoy ko yun habang walking with someone special. (nax!)

25.magaling ka ba magscrabble?
~ hindi! ayoko ng mga larong mashado kong pinag-iisip

26.mahilig ka ba sa movies ni jackie chan?
~ yup. nasimulan ko pa yung naka-kung fu shoes sya tas may bangs sya (kinda looks like Robin Padilla these days. eeeew!)

27. ok ba sayo ang long distance relationship?
~ Next question please

28. kelan ka huling namili sa sm?
~ last week

29.anong gagawin mo pag may biglang humalik sayo ng hindi mo alam?
~ depende kung sino yung hahalik. pagkilala ko walang kaso. pag di ko kilala at di ko
gusto, patay sya.

30. Describe mo nga mga friends mo?
~ fun-loving, dependable

31. may nagregalo ba sayo nung bday mo?
~ meron! sana meron ulet this year tas mas marame.

SURVEY #2
1. Do you have a friend?
> YES!

2. Can you stay at home for 1 week?
> YUP! kailan start ng challenge? Hehehe!

3. Is there someone who you like at the moment?
> SUPER YES!

4. What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
> When a Man Loves a Woman

5. Which do you prefer science or math?
> Math

6. What do you like cellphone or tv?
> TV

7. Flip flops or sneakers?
> flip flops

8. Drum lover or guitar lover?
> drum lover

9. Last thing you did before this?
> Brushed my teeth

10. How many times can you honestly say you've been in love?
> 2

11. What is a question that people ask you that always gets on your nerves?
> Kailan ka ba mag-aasawa?

12. Favorite place?
> my room

15. Name someone you consider a genius:
> si Claro Llaguno

16. What was your favorite childhood toy?
> wala. I'm more of an outdoor-loving kid. In short mga larong-kalye dahil ako'y isang batang-kalye.

18. What do you think about long-distance relationships?
> tinanong na naman! ayokong sagutin.

19. Who is/was your favorite bf or gf?
> Pag singagot ko yan para na kong nag-compare.

20. Would you rather date someone 5-6 years older or 5-6 years younger?
> Older

21. Name a person who's diary you would lyk 2 read.
> wala. pag-online diary (blog) alang kaso pero kung well-kept, i wouldn't bother.

22. Have you ever had the same dream more than once?
> OO! scary kase un na nman.

23. What do you dislike about being in a relationship?
> hanggang san ka pwedeng magtanong ng mga bagay-bagay without sounding nosy, insecure or di mo kayang magbigay ng trust.

24. If you were famous, what would you be famous for?
> my humor

25. Name the closest thing to you that is green.
> My Old Navy shirt

26. "Once a cheater always a cheater".REACTION.
> SO TRUE!

27. How many kids do you want to have?
> 4

28. Do you believe in "love at first sight"?
> No!

29. What are your favorite colors?
> Blue, white, black

30. Name something you have to do tomorrow.
> pick-up the bagets

SURVEY #3
1. Are you photogenic ?
--> I think so!

2. What time do you go to bed ?
--> kapag dinalaw ng antok wala ng kyeme-kyeme. sana dalawin na talga ko ng antok.

3. What was the last thing you did before this ?
--> answered a previous survey

4. Who do you call if you need help?
--> friends

5. What's on your mind right now ?
--> an escapade to the beach

6. With whom do you wanna be with?
--> wag na baka sumikat pa

7. What movie do you wanna watch now?
--> the pursuit of happiness

8. When was the last time you went out:
--> a few hours ago
-->where: mall
-->with who: kathoy
-->activity: watched GV mallshow, had dinner

9. What do you hate the most for now ?
--> the pain i feel on my back up to my shoulders

10. What do you do everyday besides eat?
--> sleep, go to work, listen to music, take a bath, watch TV

11. Colors that make you happy?
--> blue

12. Most fave thing/s in your room ?
--> my dvd player

13. Miss someone?
--> sobra!

14. Plan to buy something?
--> yes!

15. Are you satisfied with your life now?
--> a big NO! there are some things that i'd like to fix in my life right now.

16.Do you like seafood?
-->depends on what seafood

17.Breakfast or dinner?
--> why do i have to choose?!

18. like chocolates?
--> Oh yeah!

19.Do you have a phone? wat unit?
--> yes. SE K310i

20. What's your favorite fast food?
--> McDonalds

21. Cats or dogs?
--> nadah!

22. Salty or sweet?
--> sweet

23. City or country?
--> country

24. Is kissing normal for your age?
--> i'm not sure. oo naman!

25.Are you athletic?
--> yes

26. favorite band for now?
--> side a til i die

27. Do you have your own cell phone?
--> yes

28. What do you wear to bed?
--> shorts and loose shirt. init lately e

29. Ever had a crush on a teacher in highschool?
--> nadah! c'mon!

30. Coke or pepsi?
--> coke

31. sugar or spice?
--> sugar

32. Can you use chopsticks?
--> yes

33. Did you care about getting good grades?
--> i think so especially when end of the sem was fast approaching

34. Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
--> oo naman and i even make myself comfortable. kanya-kanyang style lang un.

35. Get a job or ask your parents for money?
--> definitely get a job

36. Is your dad strict?
--> no

37. Do your parents give you enough privacy?
--> yes. they don't ask unless i start it.

38. Do your parents trust you?
--> i think so. it's about time!

39. Do you make friends quickly?
--> no

40. Do you tell your mom everything?
--> not really but i enjoy my conversations with her.

41. What do you & your parents fight about most?
--> my temper

42. If u love someone and he/she rejected u. What will u do to him/her?
--> nothing but i'll definitely move away and not show my face anymore.

43. Can u sing or rap?
--> i can carry a tune. is that ok?

44. Wut do u think bout this survey?
--> fun! ang hirap magsinungaling. joke!

I hate ME!

SWAY

Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you

And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why
I say it's infinitely true

Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure, and no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon

It's all because of you
It's all because of you
Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why, I say it's infinitely true

It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you

Boy, I'm in such a mess again. I had let my emotions rule over me (again!). I'm all wrong. I didn't see it coming or I was constantly in denial. How could it be? I was always shaking off the idea until I found myself getting affected with everything that was happening. Why oh why?! I should have kept my distance but I did not.

But I know this will pass. This is nothing. It's just a simple case of displacement. This is not going to be permanent. This is not good for me and to a lot of people. I'm not going to jeopardize our friendship or any one's life for that matter because of my feelings. I better accept what I feel, let go and move on. I'll be able to pull myself together and simply live each day like it was before.

God has just worked amazingly and had actually intervened. He did something that will stop me from getting into deep trouble. I'm praying so hard. Still.

Tell-tale Signs

This was supposed to be a Friendster testimony but it was very long. My best friend who's in the states took time to do this. A feel good article. He doesn't have a blogsite. Thanks pare! I miss you terribly...

I don't know if I should be posting this. It's such a giveaway. Some of which aren't true. Go figure!

In the 9 years that I've known Rhaych, I still wonder why I am best friends with her. Not that I am questioning what we have. But the girl is just crazy. You can't help but be swayed with her millions of emotions. She can get into your nerves. You sometimes want to whack her on the head. But I love this girl. I truly do. I would never be like this if not for her. Thanks for the craziness Rhaych!

People say that they know Rhaych too well. Nobody knows her like I do. Even if I'm oceans and timezones away, I can never forget her. Her voice, smile, laugh, cry still hound me and I can't help but miss her. I wish I could be there for her. Di ko man sya mapautang or malibre man lang. I owe her a lot. There's this unexplainable connection that we have. We don't communicate as often as before but we always kinda pick up from where we left and that's it. She always tells me that I might be his long lost fraternal twin brother because I always make my presence felt at her lowest. Have you seen her cry? Parang bata! You wanna tuck her in and hush her from crying. She'll try as much as she can not to mention anything negative and pretend that she's okay. Bistado ka na! This girl is very sensitive. From the outside, she may look tough and always ready for action. But deep inside, she's all human capable of loving and hurting. She's gonna say that I'm so baduy na naman. Hey, I'm just telling the truth.

For those who'd like to learn the complexities of Rhaych, you have to read on. The tell-tale signs of Rhaychisms:

• All of a sudden sinipon, nagkamot ng ilong na halos ikapunit na nito.
  Nilalabanan pero sobrang inaantok na.
  
  
• Tears her nails.
  Super nervous.
  
  
• Biglang di kumain at biglang nag-ipon.
  Check the nearest mall, magse-sale na naman yan.
  
  
• Di nanghihinayang mag-international call.
  Yung phone bill wala pang 1000.
  
  
• Nagmimiscall, nagpaparing lang.
  Yung phone bill lagpas 1000 na.
  
  
• Bumili ng damet na hindi sale.
  May occasion na makikita yung crush.
  
  
• Iniwasan yung isang tao, wala sa friendster nya, changes the topic when it's about that person.
  She likes the person too much and is trying so hard to deny her feelings.
  
  
• Sobrang sakit na ng likod.
  Super stressed.
  
  
• Nagkwento with her high-pitched voice.
  Overly excited, sobrang saya nya.
  
  
• When she's driving and she doesn't say any word and grips on the steering wheel really hard.
  Sobrang galit yan!
  
  
• She doesn't say anything and excuses herself.
  Galit na yan, iiyak na lang yan sa malayo instead of saying anything that she'll regret.
  
  
• Sobrang maingay, hyper at malakas ang boses.
  May problema!
  
  
• Magjojoke tas sya una tatawa kase hindi nakakatawa.
  May problema!
  
  
• Magyayayang gumimik at gastos nya.
  MAY PROBLEMA (siguradong mabigat kase manlilibre eh)!
  
  
• For the longest time, biglang magtetext.
  She misses the person so much.
  
  
• Magkukwento about a certain person and suddenly bursts into tears.
  She loves that person so much

Her eyes never lied. She may be all smiles but the girl could be crumbling inside.

So there...

You may or may not like her but that's how she is. If we try to change a bit of her, she wouldn't be the Rhaych that I know. She can be a real pain sometimes or you can be the pain for her. So before you say anything, Are you even worth Rhaych's attention?

Thanks Atty! Hugs for Alie... I owe you one bro!

Driving on Fridays and Listening to my Music

Friday is always the best day of the week. Fridays mean that I get to rest the next day, my mind away from work. Woohoo!

But one thing I like about Fridays is that I get to listen to old songs on Magic 89.9. You know 80's to late 90's music. I grew up listening to such songs that's why I can almost identify and sing along when I hear them. I can say that eventhough they sound very simple, the lyrics are very meaningful. Almost all of my favorite songs come from this genre and I don't mind if people call me baduy (nyak the term is so 80's). Have you heard U2's With or Without You? Steve Perry's Foolish Heart? Earth, wind and Fire's September? Madonna's Crazy For you? David Pomeranz's Got to Believe in Magic? Apo Hiking Society's When I met You? Joe Jackson's Be my Number Two? Gary Valenciano's Panno? Jam Morales' Even If? Odette Quesada's Friend of Mine? Toto's I'll be Over You? Lou Pardini's What Might Have Been? I could go on and on baby! Whether it is new wave, pop, ballad, etc. I may not know all the song titles and the artists, but I find the songs cool to listen. That's why I enjoy driving on Fridays cause I get to belt out inside my car. I sing at the top of my lungs. Sad to say Teepee is not tinted. Well, I really don't mind. It's my territory and I'm not bothering anyone for that matter. So chill out if you see me shake my head to the beat, tap my hands on the steering wheel and move my lips as if I'm saying something to you (I'm just singing okay. I'm not talking to you!). Listening to music and sometimes singing along work for me. It is very therapeutic especially if my spirit is very low. Sometimes it shocks me that when I turn on the radio, there's actually a song that describes how I feel at that moment. So that's it! I love driving on Fridays and listening to my kind of music.

Have to go, there's another song that I wanna sing. Ciao!

My Sunny Sundee

I used to tell my friends that if I write something about someone on my blog that means that someone must have been very special for me to have those thoughts come out naturally. I could have shared something very special with that person.

Now, I am writing this for a special person and her name is Sundee. A few months back, she read a blog I wrote about Kathoy and she said that I should write about her in the future. I hope this is not yet too late.

It's strange that I got so attached with Ate Sundee whom I've only known for only a few months. Ate Sundee surprisingly treated me as a friend, almost like family. And we both know that this separation will not be the end of our friendship. We will always be special to each other.
Pregnant and all, she and I had a heart-to-heart talk about the work I got into back in May. I was losing hope and was on the verge of quitting but she presented to me the situation plain and simple. We just knew each other for a few days but she was there to listen and console. She assured me that she'll be there to back me up. I knew right then that I was gonna be okay.

Up to this very day, she never stopped giving me all the support that I needed whether it would be about work, family, friends, love, life. She was like my big sister five nights a week. She was very open. She would tell me what I've been doing wrong and what I've been doing right. She was very tactful. She was honest but was careful not to hurt my feelings as well. I listen to her because when she talks to me like that I really feel that she cares for me and just wants the best for me. I so appreciate that. She was my very good protector. When I was in trouble, she almost volunteered to stand up for me because I was too weak to defend myself. She tries her best to make me smile when I'm down. I learned so much from her past experiences. Her wisdom is so amazing.

She was my sun after the storms that I go through every now and then. She keeps me sane and reminds me to be careful in everything I do. She makes me want to believe in myself more. She's my sister and my friend.

Ate Sunds, thanks for the wonderful months we spent together. I am happy that I made you smile or laugh every now and then. Thank you for trusting me as well with OS/Jugee. I can't still understand why you made me your son's godmother.

My Sun(dee) is about to set but I hope she shines on me again. I bid you farewell. I'll surely miss you and I hope you succeed in whatever path you're going to take. You are a gift to me and to a lot of people and you know that I love you so much!

A Saturday Treat

The First 2 nights of March had been really hell. I don't know why. I was just looking forward to the bonding that we're gonna have the next day. After the shift was over, I was able to chill a bit.

First it was a shared breakfast with Ate Sundee, the woman who took a week off before really resigning. It was fun. Food was great and we had time to talk about a lot of things. We still have three days to spend with her next week.

I'd like to thank Adi and the busmates for taking time out to bring me McDonald's breakfast.

Next, we were off to watch You Got Me! Sam and Zanjoe are really gods in their own right. I wished I was Toni or Moe. It's just that why was the coconut so symbolic???

Then the Nike sale where Tin bought a new pair of cool sneakers. Ganda! I, on the other hand, opted to shop at the Podium because they had a sale. Hehehe!

The ultimate happening of the day was watching Christian Bautista and having the chance to meet him. I was planning to watch him in April for his major concert. But what the heck! He was there so why miss the chance. The album is terrific. I know all the songs. He's talented, nice and good-looking. And it was indeed a Saturday treat!

What February Taught Me

Finally, February is over. The shortest month of the year and so far, it had been a difficult 28 days for me. If only I could scream out everything that I felt inside, I would have done it. But that would not be enough. I could probably shout, cry, laugh and then cry again. The burden of the previous month hopefully lightens and give me some relief. I'm keeping my fingers really crossed.

With every emotion that I had gone through back in February, there are a few things that I learned about life and myself. As they say, every experience has its own lesson. Let me share my realizations:

1. I have my highs and I have my lows. I can't expect everything to be smooth sailing. I can't be under the sun all the time. That would be dangerous! Along the way, waves can get me and drown me. My boat may capsize but I have to keep guard. I always have to have my lifevest (family, real friends) close by.
   
2. I am human and I am entitled to my emotions. I'm not as strong as I thought I was.
   
3. When things get worse, I have to think of myself first and how I can get out of the situation. I have to stand up for myself and believe that I can make it through.
   
4. I shouldn't be too trusting. My vulnerabilty can get me into trouble. I have to see what is beyond the front presented.
   
5. People will always assume and talk and judge but as long as I know the truth, that's what matters most.
   
6. People who I trust the most can also hurt me the most.
   
7. I have to give myself some space to think, reflect and pray.
   
8. I deserve to pamper myself without guilt. A good massage does relieve my stress.
   
9. My old friends will always be there to support and love me.
   
10. I can never have the person I love the most.
    
11. But then, I should never lose hope on love. Someone out there loves me true.
    
12. I always have to bring my MEDICARD.

As I've said it was a roller coaster. I hope the ride comes into a halt. I need to catch my breath and be ready for what is forth and coming. A new month has just ushered in. I woke up late and barely got to work on time. I lost my voice and felt so tired. I saw my beloved students and hugged them. I went back to my old family , St. Paul, and it was my second home. I pray that March gives me some slack. Please!

P.S.

Best hirit for the month of Feb comes from my cousin:
"T@&* #na, maghahanap ka pa ng pinsan e ang dami na naten!"